DAY 2 in the year of…

IMG_6239Each morning brings a new beginning, a new page, a new story.  I get to choose how I see the world.  Isn’t it wonderful that it is July – the sun is shining and my petunias are in full bloom?  I am marking my calendar.  July 23rd is my Happy New Year.

Photo on 2016-07-24 at 9.21 AMI never did put makeup on yesterday.  I did today.  So here I am – in makeup AND earrings! I even put my eyebrows on for the occasion.  It is important to set my intention of doing something new for the day.  That special space in time when my head and mind is clear and pure is very short.  Life crowds in with its many intrusive thoughts.  I feel my heart clutching itself with the onslaught of false impressions and feelings.  I pause in the moment, letting the feelings come.  They are real even if they are from false thoughts.  In Byron Katie’s words, I ask myself:  Is it true?  I will file that for later.

What I have learned in these 2 short days is that I’m not a natural self nurturer.  I often feel selfish and mean.  I am caught in the habit of caring and giving to others.  I am not sure whether it is in the right spirit.  I know that I’m incapable of not doing the right thing.  But now I am going to learn how to pamper myself.

Habits and routines are healthy and good for us.  But we can get into too much of a rut.  I can and have been- living by rote.  I prided myself that I’m not a fussy person.  I’m easy to please.  Whatever, It doesn’t matter – are my mantras.  I use them towards myself, food, clothes, whatever.  That’s also another mantra.  I want to eliminate those phrases. I am learning to be fussy.

IMG_6593This morning breakfast mattered.  Instead of my usual toast, I had steel cut porridge with blueberries.  Making the decision to do something new every day opened up my senses.  Yesterday, when the rain came, I realized how much I love watching and listening to the rain.  I rushed out to the deck to watch and listen to nature’s beauty.  I’m making a list of my loves as they come to me.  I’m not a list maker either.  I store everything in my head.  No wonder it hurts.  It’s crammed and overflowing with too much.  We have to go and sort, discard and file.  Till tomorrow.

What are you doing different today?




About hafong

Hello! My name is (Leung) Hafong alias Lily Leung. You always say the last name first….that is the Chinese way. That is my partner lurking behind me. Since this is my blog, I won’t mention his name. But this is a rather cool picture. You see me and yet you don’t…sort of the way I feel about myself most of my life. So this blog is a self-exploration, an archeology dig of some sort. My tools…..words of a thousand or so at a sitting. I will try for that.
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