Each morning brings a new beginning, a new page, a new story. I get to choose how I see the world. Isn’t it wonderful that it is July – the sun is shining and my petunias are in full bloom? I am marking my calendar. July 23rd is my Happy New Year.
I never did put makeup on yesterday. I did today. So here I am – in makeup AND earrings! I even put my eyebrows on for the occasion. It is important to set my intention of doing something new for the day. That special space in time when my head and mind is clear and pure is very short. Life crowds in with its many intrusive thoughts. I feel my heart clutching itself with the onslaught of false impressions and feelings. I pause in the moment, letting the feelings come. They are real even if they are from false thoughts. In Byron Katie’s words, I ask myself: Is it true? I will file that for later.
What I have learned in these 2 short days is that I’m not a natural self nurturer. I often feel selfish and mean. I am caught in the habit of caring and giving to others. I am not sure whether it is in the right spirit. I know that I’m incapable of not doing the right thing. But now I am going to learn how to pamper myself.
Habits and routines are healthy and good for us. But we can get into too much of a rut. I can and have been- living by rote. I prided myself that I’m not a fussy person. I’m easy to please. Whatever, It doesn’t matter – are my mantras. I use them towards myself, food, clothes, whatever. That’s also another mantra. I want to eliminate those phrases. I am learning to be fussy.
This morning breakfast mattered. Instead of my usual toast, I had steel cut porridge with blueberries. Making the decision to do something new every day opened up my senses. Yesterday, when the rain came, I realized how much I love watching and listening to the rain. I rushed out to the deck to watch and listen to nature’s beauty. I’m making a list of my loves as they come to me. I’m not a list maker either. I store everything in my head. No wonder it hurts. It’s crammed and overflowing with too much. We have to go and sort, discard and file. Till tomorrow.
What are you doing different today?