IMG_3154Some mornings doldrum sits heavily upon me.  I’m like a fat Buddha, unable to rise from my Lotus position.  I sigh and heave my chest to no avail.  I cannot summon up la joie de vivre.  I cannot rise above it all.  Must I be full of what I am not?  That is the moral question.

I cannot give up, sit and let everything hang out and say ‘After all, tomorrow is another day.’  I am not Buddha or Scarlett O’Hara though I would love to say, ‘Frankly my dear, I don’t give a damn.  Having said all this, I do feel better. Maybe a bit of Scarlett’s spirit have seeped into me though I’ve never gotten so bored I could scream.

IMG_4119Now, I can push through some of the doldrum.  Or is it fatigue?  I can see the light at the end of the tunnel as they say. I am finding a few words.  I have been away from the keyboard too long.  It’s difficult to recover the rhythm of my tap, tapping.  I’m adrift from my thoughts and intuits.  You do lose what you don’t use.  I must unlock my limbs now and rise above it all.  Tomorrow will be another today.  Tap. Tap. Tap.

About hafong

Hello! My name is (Leung) Hafong alias Lily Leung. You always say the last name first….that is the Chinese way. That is my partner lurking behind me. Since this is my blog, I won’t mention his name. But this is a rather cool picture. You see me and yet you don’t…sort of the way I feel about myself most of my life. So this blog is a self-exploration, an archeology dig of some sort. My tools…..words of a thousand or so at a sitting. I will try for that.
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