NOTHINGNESS AND LISTS

I played hookey today and enjoyed a bit of nothing. It’s quite hard to do – this nothingness. Have you ever tried? I used to be quite good at languishing but now I have to work at it. I have to think about it, make a conscious effort just to relax and idle. I planned it last night. I decided that I was going to skip the exercise class in the morning and rest. I feel something, perhaps a cold, coming on. The guy has a sore throat. I have a bit of the shivers, perhaps in sympathy.

I can’t call today  a total success. Rest and nothing are hard to do. Perhaps I sat and read my murder mystery an hour at the most. I used to be able to sit and read for hours. Now, my concentration and attention are fractured and splintered into minutes and seconds. Try sitting in silence for 5 minutes. It’s long. I have no trouble with a 20 minute sitting meditation because I am guided by Mark Williams’ voice. Even then, my mind wanders off in many directions. I am comforted by the fact that it’s called a practice.

As for making lists like I said yesterday, my lists are in my head. 1)I tended to my most pressing thing in the morning. I should get points for that. 2)I cleared off my dining room table. I feel better even if I put everything that was on it in a basket. 3)I sorted one file and shredded the outdated material. I think that’s enough for one day. My hair was standing on end after that one. Ugh! I’m letting Sheba take us out again on this 20th day of the Ultimate Blog Challenge. Tomorrow is another day.

 

About hafong

Hello! My name is (Leung) Hafong alias Lily Leung. You always say the last name first….that is the Chinese way. That is my partner lurking behind me. Since this is my blog, I won’t mention his name. But this is a rather cool picture. You see me and yet you don’t…sort of the way I feel about myself most of my life. So this blog is a self-exploration, an archeology dig of some sort. My tools…..words of a thousand or so at a sitting. I will try for that.
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2 Responses to NOTHINGNESS AND LISTS

  1. Maureen says:

    Lily, I can relate to every word! I used to read the breakfast cereal box if there was no book at hand. And now I can’t remember the last book I read. Since I’ve retired it seems I don’t have time to read a book – or is it just that I don’t give myself permission to sit still for that long? My reading now is short bursts of someone else’s blog, or the news on my iPad.
    And my dining room table has always been a magnet for the ‘I don’t know where to put it’ things.
    I love your blogs! 🙂

    • hafong says:

      Thank you, Maureen. I want some of my old self back. I feel too busy but don’t know what at! It’s all our technology I’m sure. I used to listen to the news and interesting programs on CBC radio but not anymore. I was better informed back then, reading and listening.

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