Day 122 and 123 – November 25, 2016 @2:05 pm
Thank God that no two days are equal. I am having a much better after lunch feeling. There’s none of the fatigue, sleepiness and I-want-to-throw-up looking at the dishes.The pots, pans, and stove top are cleaned. The washers, dish and laundry are going. There’s the weak washed out wintry sun coming in the windows. We are having a quiet peaceful interlude, letting the food digest and having a spot of tea.
I’m puttering through my days and year slowly but steadily. Some days I am more energetic and ambitious than others. But I am always passionate about this learning process. I am always excited about what nuggets of myself/ourselves I can excavate and examine in the light. It has always been the purpose of this blog. Yes, I do wander now and then. That is my/our nature. But I always come back again and again to do the work. What is my purpose? What is my nature? How can I do better? The answer comes to: I have to know (myself) better.
This journey has many crossroads. Which path do I take? Can I face my own truths, or would I rather not know? Do I want to be right or do I want to be happy? Can’t I have both? I’m choosing the path of truth. At this stage in my life, I cannot afford any more games. I do not want to hide. I am seeking. I want to do the work. I am guided by the works of Byron Katie, Caroline Myss and Norm Shealy. In this age of the Internet, there are so many tools at our disposal. Access is almost at the speed of light. There is no need to stay in the dark.
Here, in my real physical world, I’m doing the work at Fitness on 25th/YWCA. Mondays we do aerobics. Wednesday we do step aerobics. Fridays, obstacle course. All classes are not straight anythings. They can have weights training and they are all geared towards improving our functioning in activities of daily living. Our awesome instructor is Val. I am stronger mentally, emotionally and physically since I have stumbled into her class last December. I can’t fly yet, but I can vacuum my whole main floor at one go without stopping to rest. Here’s a sample of functional training from YouTuble: