SITTING AND STAYING – day 108 in a year of…

Day 108, November 10, 2016 @1007 pm

img_8343Another sunny morning.  The sun rose again.  I sit and observe, feeling all there is, not trying to understand or fix anything.  Life is as it is.  I am still in this spaciousness of now.  I am grateful for this gift.  I am grateful for this life.

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The sun is filling me up with light and optimism.  I am strong enough to enter the messiness of my life.  I am able to feel all the ‘uglies’ I’ve been unwilling to face.  I can sit and stay with the nausea, the revulsion rising up, the tremors, the chills and sweats of my body. They are sensations.  Like everything else, they pass.  I have chosen to do different.  I accept the consequences.  Doing the same had made me ill.  Now I am healing myself.

lvko1328I am opening one Pandora’s Box at a time.  No scary Jack jumped out at me.  I breathe a sigh of relief. What I found instead was the soft child in me.  I rescued that child and held her once more in my heart space.  I am my own mother.

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About hafong

Hello! My name is (Leung) Hafong alias Lily Leung. You always say the last name first….that is the Chinese way. That is my partner lurking behind me. Since this is my blog, I won’t mention his name. But this is a rather cool picture. You see me and yet you don’t…sort of the way I feel about myself most of my life. So this blog is a self-exploration, an archeology dig of some sort. My tools…..words of a thousand or so at a sitting. I will try for that.
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