THE WHOLE PICTURE – Day 101 in a year of…

Day 101, November 2, 2016 @2:22 pm

wewb3750I’ve broken through the first 100 days of trying to doing/seeing things differently. I’m aiming for the next 100.  Any breakthroughs/lightbulb moments?  Yes and no.  The first thing I realize is how habitual I am. I sit in the same chair.  I drink from the same cup.  I wear the same kind of clothes.  I have attachments. I drive the same route.  I go to the same exercise class every Monday, Wednesday and Friday.  I have the same routines.  Habits and routines are not bad.  In fact they are healthy, saving us time and energy.

Change is also healthy but it is hard.  I discover that I do feel uncomfortable when I change where I sit, drinking out of a different cup.  I feel the discomfort thinking about it before I even make the change.  It sounds silly and I wouldn’t have believed it if I hadn’t experienced it.  I use the same locker at the YWCA every time I go.  I’m quite put out if someone else claims it before me.  So I’m also territorial!  I will try for a different locker on Friday and get out of my comfort zone.

These 100 days have been a slow go, weary at times.  Each day seem a drip into the bucket from a slow leaky tap.  That’s what real life is like.  It is real life.  But at least I’m breaking out of the grey days of October.  I’ve been whining, complaining  and writing about it the whole month long.  I’m hearing myself and I’m not proud.  I’m making a turn though.

img_7885I’m seeing more of the whole picture now, not just the repetition of me, I and myself. I’m not the only one suffering and struggling.  I’m just more vocal.  And it’s okay. It’s how I find release.  Some of us are more quiet than others.  There’s promise of sunshine tomorrow into next week .  Hallelujah!  Praise the Lord.

To the next 100 days!  May I flourish.

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About hafong

Hello! My name is (Leung) Hafong alias Lily Leung. You always say the last name first….that is the Chinese way. That is my partner lurking behind me. Since this is my blog, I won’t mention his name. But this is a rather cool picture. You see me and yet you don’t…sort of the way I feel about myself most of my life. So this blog is a self-exploration, an archeology dig of some sort. My tools…..words of a thousand or so at a sitting. I will try for that.
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