I drank too much wine last night. The intentions I set prior all went out the window and you could say that I have failed. On top of that, I fell asleep early and woke up at 1:30 and could not get back to sleep till dawn. But by 7, Sheba’s insistent snout in my face got me up again. It was her breakfast time and there was no denying her.
I’m feeling a little out of sorts, not quite myself, seeing the world with slanted eyes, telling myself stories that are not quite true. But I am not punishing myself any further. I am going to tell myself a different set of stories , filling myself with kindness and comforting myself with a breakfast of bacon, eggs and toast. I do deserve it.
So I am making progress, one step at a time. I have hoped and pined for changes in the past. But I have failed over and over to realize those dreams, not recognizing till now that success is in me. I have to be the change I want to see, as Mahatma Gandhi wisely said. Change is a lonely street, for no one can do it for you. And people might not like you for it.
I am taking a deep breath. And I tell myself another story.