Breakfast is done, the dishes are in the dishwasher, the floor is swept and I am before my keyboard. My heart is pounding a little. I am taking some deep breaths to slow down. But it is all good. This works for me.
I am, by nature, a dawdler, very slow coming out of the gates. I could dawdle, drink tea and coffee, daydream and not get a single thing done all day. It is not a bad thing. But daydreams are not the stuff of real satisfaction. They do not fill your pocketbook, put dinner on the table or rid the cobwebs in the corners of your house. They do add cobwebs to my mind, slowing it down even more.
I have to do different. I don’t want to be stuck in ways that don’t work. I do not want to be a prisoner of bad habits. I am a slow learner. But now, I GIVE HER. Right after breakfast, I move fast and steady. I do not obsess. My mop goes over a spot once. Done! My dust rag over an area once. Another done. I am cleaning like a MOTHER FUCKER. Swish, swish, swish! Please excuse the language.
I adopted the term from Cheryl Strayed. She wrote a book called WILD. She used the term with reference to her writing….from the heart. I would like to write like that, but we all have our own styles. I write like Tinkerbell. I hope that I have a bit of fairy dust with my words. It works for me. I see myself in my words. I see my actions. I see my mistakes. I learn from my words. I tap away the shadows and cobwebs in my mind.
Now I need to MOVE on with the day!